if i know why, i will provide you with the answers. right now, i don't even know why am i acting this way. scold me, yell at me, everything. i will still don't know. i just want to shut the f*k up and keep quiet from everyone.

This is for those who are against me having attitude problems, stay at home with a dull face, thinking im lazy till that i don't do my housework.

Frankly speaking, do you guys think i like behaving this? NO I DON'T. I fucking hate my life, i fucking hate the way im being controlled, i fucking hate the way im living my life, i fucking hate everything in my life. One last thing, i hate life, i wish i can screw it up.

And to my parents, if you all think by yelling, scolding me, grounding me makes you happy, makes you think that its right by treating me this way, so be it, continue doing things that makes you feel right.

What i'll do is to just shut the fuck up, listen to what you all say, do things that what you want me to do, and draw a line between me and everyone else.

I am 17 yet i feel like im 12. Everyone's family has their own family day out on every sunday, how about mine? Haha we don't have. You guys go out even when you all have your off days, when you guys are back from going out, you guys will vent your angers when you meet something unpleasant outside, we children only kept quiet and bear grudges.

When we vent out angers when we meet something unpleasant, you calls us unreasonable, saying that we have attitude problems. Is this fair? Well when i blabber vulgarities on facebook, you guys start to scold me, asking me to stop it as it makes you dignity decreases.

Okay what i want to say that i am 17, that's my facebook, i have the rights for posting what i want to post, if you are afraid of yout dignity gettin decreased, then i shall jolly well get anti social with your friends. And if i were to do that, your friends will ask you why am i so anti social, you guys will start asking me why i kept doing things to make your dignity decrease?

This is life i know, i gotta deal with it. I know i've been rude, i know i'm not a good daughter of yours. If you are wondering, why am i like this. Let me tell you my answer, i don't know, i just don't feel like talking to you all, anyone.

When i ask people out on sunday, they replies "Sorry, its family day, you not going out with your family?" I will reply "Haha, it never occured in my whole 17 years of living in earth, even if it does, it will be ruined." Very sacarstic, very disheartening, very shameful right?

I am use to this, when i sees my friends going out with their family, i have this feeling within me, i will ask. Why is it that our family is different from my friend's? Understand now? My friend's mom bring her out for shopping, lunch, chill out. Mine?

Friend's dad bring whole family out for a ride, spend the day outside just with the family itself. Mine?

The reason why i like to stay outside is because life at home sucks. Sometimes i wonder, have you all ever regretted having me as your daughter?

Family? I miss the kind of feeling.