Okay hi. I am seriously in a foul mood now, so don't mind those vulgarities okay. I am starting to hate myself for being lazy, stupid, fucktard. What exactly do i want in my life? Frankly speaking, i don't know. I seriously feel that my life is filled with people who don't fucking understand me, end up, conclusion will be always Me. Fine, im done with all these shits.

First thing: I want to get out of MIS right away, im going to quit tomorrow.
Second thing: I notice that my mom likes to find fault on me nowadays, what i did was to just shut the fuck up and then let her accuse of me being unhappy, GREAT.
Third thing: I don't like the way my life is now.
Forth thing: I hope i can die or faint now.
Last thing: FUCK MY FUCKING FUCK UP LIFE.


I really don't know what to do, i feel so malas to talk to my family members, weird i know. But those who really understands me isn't my family members, its my friends. I am going to quit tomorrow, because my teacher in charge actually encourage me to do that.

I got no idea what to do after tomorrow. No life for me after tomorrow i guess? What i need now is a hug, like now. I don't think i'll have the mood to talk on the phone later on with Syukri. Sorry Syukri, really sorry about it :/

Life sucks to the max, im gonna deal with it.

& i love you, i know there's still a long way to go, im willing to stay and face it with patience. So yeah, i will stick to my promise, okay dear^^