1st day of work was boring. Was late for work due to the freaking 190, urgh. Saw Serhan, Ilham and Meimeikia kat bustop. Haha. Bus 190, then mrt to Tanjong Pagar. There was a couple beside me, the girl was lying against my hand and when i move my hand away, she felt it but she didn't bothered to say sorry. Urgh, got boyfriend daisai? :O

Reached already, headed to Office. So ya da ya da, malas nak elaborate, one word to describe : Boring. B texted me during lunch time, made me smiled by recieving his text. Hehe ily b :]

After work, headed to Cck by train. Stupid train stuck like crazy, packed like gila. Had a great time talking to Jessica anyway :] Reached Cck, met Cousin & Ahmad. Then off to Southview by 67. Walked to 230, met Farris, Suhaimi & Yan and 2 more guy. Then off to soccer court. Farris pei me till bustop, thanks Farris!

Reached bustop, there's this old man walked towards the bustop that we were at. And Farris.....................

Farris : Mampos Emily, he is gonna rape you.
Me : Shut up la, rape you better.
Farris : *waves to old man* $10 want?
Old man : *stares at me and Farris.*
Me : Farris!!!!!!! *angry*

Old man kept staring at me till i got really scared and start to whine at Farris, tears are coming out from my eyes, yes i know its very childish, but i am really very scared. So Farris stared at the old man, and the old man smiled at him!! Omg, -_-"

190 finally came~ And the Old man board it too, argh. He kept staring at my butt and i was seriously very irritated by it and im starting to get nervous and scared about it, how i wish i can really knock him out and everything will ends. Hahah i know right, so dumb. ZzzzZzzz.

We alighted at the same stop and damn, he followed me home!!!! I was crossing the bridge and he freaking ran towards me! Omg, fucking scary and i really felt like crying already. I chiong to my block's lift and quickly close the door, when the door closed, i felt much relieved although i didn't know i've already start to cry. HAHA. Stupid Farris.

Home, bath, online. Told Farris what happened, guess what he said?....

"Serious? Why never call me? I fly from Cck to Bangkit sia! Anyway im very sorry Emily, i only want the $10.00 that's all."

So bastard right, padehal die takde handphone, how to contact? Bongok! Haha :P So i was on facebook for the whole night, was hopping around. And i was on Ayun's facebook. Looking at his status for the past few days, i see the old me in him again.

The mood of being confident about getting someone back, the feeling of giving up but being ego in some part of the sentence, hoping that there will be chance for myself for the relationship that i desires. The ache that i've got after being rejected after trying to upteen times, having the decision that you are the right person and i don't want to be simply friends with you but more.

I sense karma in his life, his mood, his sentence, his words, his everything. That is how i exactly felt when Ayun treated me badly, not exactly but almost exactly. Just that Ayun didn't got scolded by vulgarities, didn't got hurt like how he hurt me, didn't get to know the feeling of how a person you love kissed someone behind your back.

Ayun, if only you get to see this. I want to console you so much, but i must not do that. I've already moved on, i never want myself to think of how much did you hurt me, how long did i tolerated your nonsense and everything. I have never regretted loving you but regretted crying for you.

When i sees you in school, how i wish we are able to talk like friends, salam and all. But i cannot do that. When i goes lepak with friends and if you are there, i'll salam all but not for you definately, reason is because i will never want myself to miss you. Not because i hates you, haven't move on. I just don't want to think of everything that concerns about you.

All the best for your everything, insyallah one day i'll be able to forget everything that you've done for me, i mean those bad stuffs. Hahaha, i know you won't be able to see it, but what matters the most is what it counts in heart. Cheer up my dear boy, you deserve better, take your time to look for the perfect one, trust me, she's out there waiting for you.

Cheer up, i don't wanna see you sulking in school anymore. Takecare, till here for you.

Aite readers, don't think the wrong way! I've already moved on from Ayun. Im currently with someone else, hehehe so yeah! Bye and goodnight! :) & I love you sayang, we can make it through this 5 months! :]