Hi readers. Last night was such a long night. Was on the phone with Syukri, Nelson & Michelle. Slept at 3am. Woke up at 7am today and got ready for work with a sickly face. Applied for 1/2 day leave, headed to Cck to meet up with Suhaimi & Co. And i thought i saw you. I wish it wasn't you, really.

Left around 4+ alone, cried while on the way to interchange, ish life sucks yknow. Took 190 back. Home, bath, dinner, sleep. Woke up at 8.30pm. Mom & Dad send me to Teckwhye and they left for a appointment.

Checked my weight, and i am 52.4kg. Omg i slimmed down for 2 kg but i am still not satisfied with it. Told Doctor that i aim to be 45kg and he said im crazy. Omg naise one doc. Lol. Bus back home.

Been facing problems for the past few days, i have no idea how to face it, those who i expected to be there for me ain't there and those whom i didn't expected are there. I got no idea what to do, i really don't. I believe, everything will be over soon.

Now what im trying to do is to pray hard that everything will be fine soon, i gotta stand up alone and stop relying on people already. Its hard for me to be happy now, but i'll try. Here i am, temperature rising, typing words that expresses my feelings, but i know, you don't give a fuck to me. I'll move on from all my mistakes, because i know, i've learnt my lesson.

Thank you Aan for being there, i appreciate much.
Thanks to my usual mates, i love you all so much. If can, i wanna marry all of you. HA!
And of course, Syukri. You're the best ex boyfriend. :)

If you are looking at this page, i want you to know that you left me without a good reason, and that is why i kept making mistakes. And i'm wondering, if we were to really bump each other, will you remember the promises you made when you hugged me? Because i do and i am holding on to it now.