Work today was great. No fights, no conflicts, everything is great. I love working today, i really do.

Had a nightmare last night, i can remember everything. I cried like there's no tomorrow in the dream, i was so hurt till i really want to wake up from my dream. Dreamt of you sending me this text message: I went on with you because i wanna make use of you, i wanna fool around you, but i didn't expect you to love me. Im sorry, i don't love you at all, my heart is with other girls, but not you." I cried, i really did, because when i woke up, there's tears in my eyes still.

Texted Aan immediately after much hesitation, told him everything. But he said dreams are opposite. I really really hope its opposite. I am so.. lost completely. :/ But now worries, i won't let my tears fall again, i promise i won't let it fall.

Went home straight after work, went to queue up for 190. Remember that place anot samdol? That place is where we first met, smiled, wave to each other. I remember you're still wearing your school uniform and i'm on my way to the polyclinic. You were running cause you thought that's your bus, padehal is my bus. Haha tsk2 you samdol :p I still remember the way we smiled to each other, after i board my bus, you texted me "I saw you! Heheheh :D" You were so happy, i am happy too.

I miss taking 307 and meet you. I don't know what in my mind now, i should move on, but i can't. Please stop missing the past we had, please stop, erase me or whatever shit, just let me forget about you. Let's not contact anymore, i want my feelings to fade like how yours did. I really want but i know, im being ego. I need you badly, i need.

I don't know anymore. Life is so hectic, work, family, love. What else? I am lost, completely. I need your texts and hugs.

Okay, my post for today is so.. emotional and fucking lame. Who needs love? Fuck.

AHH FUCK. I GOT NO MOOD. K BYE I WANT OFFLINE. FUCK ALL OF YOU. :(